Taking Stock

Once again, I'm behind on this blog. I have lots of pictures to share from last week, it's just not going to happen right now. =) We took last Friday off to enjoy a family fun day. Then, that evening, Dac and I got to go on a movie date. I think it'd literally been about a year since we went to see a movie. Wowzers. We did other fun things that weekend and then, Monday came, and I turned 30. 

I hear it called "dirty thirty" and I get that it's a big one, but I always (as in the past several years) kind of looked forward to my 30s. I envisioned myself at my best when I thought about the impending decade. I had fully planned on having my life together. You know, looking and feeling my best, feeling comfortable and confident in my own skin, knowing what I wanted to be when I grow up... those types of things. Well the big day came and went and I'm still very much the same. =) I'm still just me - an often insecure, friendly introvert who still doesn't have it figured out but yet manages to (mostly) enjoy the ride along the way. =) 

My twenties were big. There were tons of firsts and life changes. A lot can change in ten years but you can feel like not much has changed at all. I think that's where I'm at. When I really take stock of where I've been and what has happened in my life... it's a 'whoa' kind of moment. Still, I feel very much the same. With time comes more wisdom and less naivety (wise enough to know what's really important in life and just how fast life flies and less naive to the hurts and uncertainties of the world) but also more acceptance (acceptance of myself and who I really am - the good, the bad, and the ugly and acceptance that there's some dreams that might not come true). I

My goal for the next ten years is to get a little closer to my happy place... wherever that is and whatever that looks like. I know I might not make it all the way there. I understand that you're never too old for God to fulfill His plan in your life and for me, that could be when I'm 98. Sure, there's things I'd like to do this decade (make the house more homey, travel, get healthier, try new things, lose some weight, be more financially stable, etc... etc... etc...) the main thing is to inch my way closer to that place and not let fear or lack of motivation stand in my way.

I saw this on a blog this morning and decided to share my 'stock' at this very point in my life. Here's what I'm up to, in general, at the age of just-thirty. =)

Making: memories
Cooking: Reid's lunches, baked goods, and meals using out Bountiful Baskets produce
Drinking: way too much Diet Dr. Pepper
Reading: blogs and board books
Wanting: more time
Looking: like I should get my brows waxed and go for a walk
Playing: "peek-a-boo", "I'm gonna get you", and the "what's that?" game
Wasting: time and probably potential
Sewing: ha - you know I have friends do that stuff for me
Wishing: and hoping and praying and dreaming... =)
Enjoying: extra quality time
Waiting: for things to be a little more 'normal' again
Liking: half price shakes at Sonic after 8 p.m.
Wondering: if I'll ever have it all figured out
Loving: the stage Reid is in right now - 18+ months has been so fun
Hoping: for a raise =)
Needing: to eat more veggies and drink more water
Smelling: sugar cookie Scentsy
Wearing: Jamberry nails
Following: the rules
Noticing: more grey hairs
Knowing: time flies
Thinking: about what's for supper
Feeling: a teensy bit uneasy
Giggling: at hashtags, selfies, and fun times with friends and family

Reid slipped off my lap right about now...

Here's to thirty!